what's happening?

Today

Today.... not much productivity.....

I've tried so hard to draft Report but not succeeded in doing so. I suppose I have to take a break and do something else instead.

Apa kata hati?

Rahsia Hati!

No idea

For the past few months, i had been busy. Too many things to do and sometimes i'm not sure of my priorities.

Smocked Dress for Children

I love to sew.

My first smocked dress:









A close up on my first smocked dress:









My second smocked dress for baby"


My third smocked dress:



A close up

Happy Birthday to me!!

Today is my birthday! It was just an ordinary day, nothing special.....

Can u predict future? Fortune telling?

Can anybody predict their future? What will happen tomorrow?

Tonite

Tonite, I feel lonely.
Tonite, I feel sad

Wishful thinking

Someone asked me that if I'm given the chance to change something in my life, what would it be? I never really thought about changing anything, although sometimes I do wish I can turn back the clock, sounds familiar? If I can travel back in time, I would love to go back to the days in Aberystwyth, when I was single, with no string attached. I was so happy back then but then again, it's all fate. Fate has brought me to this home, this job, to which, I always wonder, what would it be if I did this or that...

Well... time flies so fast. Everything changes. No way we can turn back the clock. Some wishful thinking!!!

Abah

Abah,

Dah hampir setahun 2 bulan abah pergi. Maafkan kak ngah atas segalanya yang telah kak ngah buat selama ini.

You have been a good father. You have never fail in your duty, be it your role as a father, an army officer or any other responsibilities given to you.

Kak ngah masih ingat lagi saat-saat terakhir abah pergi. I can't never erase it from my memory. It is still clear. Hari Jumaat saksi segala insiden itu. Pada kak ngah, itu ketentuan daripadaNya. Allah s.w.t dah tetapkan abah akan pergi pada hari Jumaat, 14 Disember 2007. Allah s.w.t dah tentukan yang abah akan mengakhiri tempoh setengah jam yang terakhir dengan kak ngah. Tapi kenapa kak ngah rasa bersalah? Mungkin betul cakap Pak Cik Zainal yang kak ngah sepatutnya bawak abah pergi hospital. Mungkin kak ngah sepatutnya kenal yang abah tengah diserang sakit jantung. Kenapa kak ngah tak kenal simptom tu semua? Kenapa? Kerana Allah s.w.t dah tentukan yang abah akan pergi. Mungkin kalau abah dihantar ke hospital, abah akan diuruskan daripada sana dan terus ke kubur, bukan ke itu permintaan abah.... bukan ke abah selalu berpesan jangan seksakan mayat?

Abah, as a daughter I have done everything within my means and capacity. I have fulfill whatever you want me to do. Abah selalu cakap yang abah percayakan kak ngah. You trust me and my capabilities to handle things. Thank you abah. I have done it but at the same time, I also wish I didn't take your responsibilities after your death. Why me? I always wish that I'm like you, managing things like you did, I almost there,..... but still not quite the same.

Abah, abah selalu cakap, kalau mati kat rumah, kena sembahyang kat rumah, baru terus ke kubur. Semua itu dah kak ngah tunaikan. Kak ngah tau abah percayakan kak ngah, tapi dalam masa yang sama, kak ngah sedih because you will not be with me anymore. No more stories to share or to cry. No one like you. None.

Abah, although you have achieved and fulfill almost whatever you want to do, but you did not attend my convocation day for my master. You said you looked forward for that day since you have missed my convocation for my syariah. You were always at all my convocations, but you have miss two of it. You will never be there anymore. There were days that I always wish that you should be around.

Abah, when you died, I died too. I lost my voice for 2 months. I was not well for 2 months. But now, I can accept your death. I have been accepting it for the past one year.

Thank you abah. Thank you for everything. No one can replace you. I miss you a lot.

Love you abah.

from your loving daugher,

Kak Ngah @ Hazlina Mohd Padil

Al-Fatihah

Law of the Seed

Someone send me this:

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Take a look at an apple tree. There might be five hundred apples on the tree and each apple has ten seeds. That's a lot of seeds! We might ask, "Why would you need so many seeds to grow just a few more apple trees?"

Nature has something to teach us here. It's telling us: "Not all seeds grow. In life, most seeds never grow". So if you really want to make something happen, you had better try more than once." This might mean: You'll attend twenty interviews to get one job. You'll interview forty people to find one good employee. And you might meet a hundred acquaintances just to find one special friend.

When we understand the "Law of the Seed", we don't get so disappointed. We stop feeling like victims. We learn how to deal with things that happen to us. Laws of nature are not things to take personally. We just need to understand them - and work with them.

IN A NUTSHELL

Successful people fail more often. But they plant more seeds.

When things are beyond your control, here's something that you must NOT DO so as to avoid misery in your life:

- You must not decide how you think the world SHOULD be.

- You must not make rules for how everyone SHOULD behave.

- Then, when the world doesn't obey your rules, you get angry! - That's what miserable people do!

On the other hand, let's say you expect that:

-Friends SHOULD return favours.

-People SHOULD appreciate you.

-Planes SHOULD arrive on time.

-Everyone SHOULD be honest.

-Your husband or best friend SHOULD remember your birthday.

These expectations may sound reasonable. But often, these things won't happen! So you end up frustrated and disappointed.

There's a better strategy:

Demand less, and instead, have preferences!

For things that are beyond your control, tell yourself: "

I would prefer this, but if that happens, it's OK too!"

This is really a change in mindset. It is a shift in attitude, and it gives you more peace of mind ...

You prefer that people are polite ... but when they are rude, it doesn't ruin your day.

You prefer sunshine ... but if it rains, it is ok too!

To become happier, we either need to:

a) Change the world, or

b) Change our thinking.

It is easier to change our Thinking!

IN A NUTSHELL

It is not the problem that is the issue, but rather it is your attitude attending to the problem that is the problem. It's not what happens to you that determines your happiness. It's how you think about what happens to you!

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In a nutshell, there's so many to think about what has happened to me especially for the past 10 years. A friend once told me that I have 'attitude', to me... to hell with him, because after 13 years, I suddenly wonder, whether I really have an 'attitude' or was it him who has the 'attitude' since he finally told me that he has been pretending to be nice to me.. then, in the first place, he's not a friend at all.

In another occasion, or rather a friendship, a friend should be just a friend. There are no rules or regulations on what friendship should be. Two friends, might end up married, divorced and at the end realised that they might better off be 'JUST FRIENDS'.

I recently told a friend of mine that I got so fed up with his excuses of "Sorry" for not being able to attend certain occasions due to this or that reason. Is it wrong for me to voice out how I felt? or should i just keep quiet because what the "Law of Seeds" said that we must learn to deal with things that had happend to us, and we must need to understand them and work with them...??

Well, I personally feel that 'The Law of Seed" is true to certain extend, but as the rule of law, there is always exceptions to the general rule, and most of the time, the exception is the 'General Rule' which is accepted by the general.

With that, I rest my case....